Monday, February 20, 2012
I'm feel tired today. And melancholy. It's cloudy out. Gray. This is a tough time of year. Everything is muted. Brown. Dull. I crave green, abundance and growth. I want a farm. This one would do.
Today we went for a drive. I found a property or two. Only one thing is stopping me; a lack of financial wherewithal. Little says it's easy to come up with the money. Just save. She volunteered her $170.00. The Boy anted up $500.00.
Between the three of us (Little, myself and the Boy) we have $671.00. Only $93, 329.00 to go. Just save.
If only we had sold our house at its peak. If only it were worth more now. If only my education hadn't cost so much. If only we'd spent less and saved more. If only.
And really I have no right to complain. It's not like I have a bad life. In fact it's rather good. Who am I to shirk what I already have? The blessings I've been given.
But I can't help it. I continue to dream. Continue to hope for the life I will have someday. Someday.